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[Nov. 4th, 2009|12:12 pm] |
This week's fail just keeps getting better. That assignment that's due Friday that I'd completed to a 10% level, because I'd thought it was worth that? It's actually worth 35%.
I probably shouldn't have checked this just before bed, because I then didn't get to sleep til after 1am, and woke up at 6:30.
So I'm tired, I'm stressed, I have a stomach ache, and I have work to do. Meanwhile, my head keeps hurting from the lack of sleep. Taking off my glasses helps, but then I can't actually see anything I'm supposed to be working on...
Grarggrgh.
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[May. 7th, 2009|02:25 pm] |
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| | Mandy, Me First And The Gimme Gimmes | ] |
I think part of why I'm tired is that I'm fairly stressed. Yes, stress is a part of life, but that doesn't mean I have to like that it is.
Work is chaotic, too many things to do, too little time, sometimes too little communication between the people that want things.
Databases is frustrating; I'm not terribly good at it, and this seems to disappoint the lecturer ("I can't believe you only got 85%!"). Also the fact that Semps got 94 and spent the entire evening whining about it didn't help; or the fact that the other guys got 100 and 101 respectively. Also also that when I try and go to the tute to work on the tasks, he's much more interested in chatting with those who already know how to do it about random stuff instead of helping those who are struggling (though I probably could more actively ask for help). Oh, and the next assignment is supposed to be a group task that those three have banded together for. Whee!
PMP, on the other hand, is typified by the following:
Chris S: PERT Charts are wonderful and useful and brilliant! There are only two reasons that they aren't used any more: One, that they're too big to print, and two, that Microsoft Project does them so badly!
Student: If MS Project can't do PERT charts, what can?
Chris S: I have no idea.
Student body: ...
I've found an open source alternative to MS Project that claims to be able to create PERT charts, which I'm hoping does as well as or better than MS Project. Assuming I can get the damn thing to run - it installed happily but then complained I didn't have some specific version of JRE installed (which doesn't strike me as a good sign).
I get it, planning is good. I have a feeling I'm going to commit murder before I finish the assignment, since I really can't translate it at all. Most of it seems to be database definition.
Does anyone have Visio? Aman sent me his translation of the PERT process, but unfortunately it was a bunch of DOCX's accompanied by a couple of Visio diagrams. I found a copy of Word 2007 to open and print the DOCXs, but now I have some Visio diagrams sitting there taunting me...
Meanwhile, having already done the content Photography is covering, I'm doing well in that - but they do things ever so slightly differently to what I was taught, so I have to resist the temptation to run ahead. Sigh.
And now to play around with that open source app for a bit then maybe try and do some DBP without screaming. I make no guarantees.
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[Mar. 22nd, 2009|10:37 pm] |
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This weekend has not been a success. I had three stated goals; if I had accomplished even one of them, then I would have considered it worthwhile.
* Catch up on Uni work
* Catch up on Work work
* De-stress
As it is, I lacked motivation for anything related to anything useful. I wound up spending most of the time hitting "Attack" on MechQuest because it was brainless.
But I broke down into tears twice today - once onto Chris, who managed to make me feel a little better while he was here. ("You're so stressed about these things because you care about them a lot." "Yeah, but 'caring' doesn't get them done.") We hung out on the trampoline for a while, because I realised that I had barely seen the sun in three days. Fresh air may have helped, marginally, but I am unconvinced.
And now I'm too spun out to sleep, despite trying to go to bed half an hour ago. I've been lying there, trying to do some vague form of meditation - thinking of blackness every time a thought intrudes, and breathing evenly - but the universe is winning. Sometimes writing in here is a form of therapy.
Gods, I'm tired of this.
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[Aug. 20th, 2007|10:31 pm] |
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| | Smokers In Love, The Lucksmiths | ] |
*Mm is working on the aforementioned "due tomorrow" task.
Rob: So, IAJ?
Mm: Not right now. Currently trying to get this finished.
Rob: Yeah. Just one question: Robocode?
Mm: ...No.
Rob: Okay then. *Prepares to leave*
Mm: I'm taking it you haven't read my DJ recently, then.
Rob: No, haven't had time.
Mm: Well, I'll tell you all about it... But not right now.
Basically? I can't afford another group task. I don't have enough time for this subject, and dragging the other person down if I can't devote the requisite amount of time is completely unfair. ...Also, I actually have an idea for a project, if I can ever figure out how the Hell I'm going to do it...
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[Aug. 10th, 2007|03:10 pm] |
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It's the second week of semester. ...The second bloody week.
I should not be so stressed and so near meltdown that I'm tempted to hide in the bathroom and cry/scream.
*releases a string of expletives*
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[Aug. 24th, 2006|03:40 pm] |
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Decisions, decisions...
I really need to go clothes shopping. I thought it was just the basics (underwear, socks, shoes - most of my sets of all three are falling apart), but I've just found a second garment with holes in it in two days - my Imaginary Friends shirt has a hole in it, and I've just found a hole in the jeans I'm wearing.
I could go shopping tomorrow, but I also really need to do the past three or four weeks' worth of Networking lab tasks. I don't have sufficient equipment at home, but if I manage to find some way of adapting one of Tristian's USB ports into a COM port (do they sell adapters for that at MSY or something?), I can steal Chris' old laptop and do things that way.
Except I'm having an "I hate Uni" week, and really need a day or two off to recuperate. And Saturday is the UTS Open Day, which I've volunteered to help represent ProgSoc at for the majority of the day. And Sunday morning is dog training. And I'll probably spend Monday trying to catch up on the various weekly lab exercises that I failed to accomplish this week because the advice of the tutors was "Ask your classmates" and the classmates didn't know, either. I don't know if I'm actually failing, but it certainly feels like it - no matter how much time I spend attempting to complete the tasks.
I also need to do grocery shopping. Or, at least, I should; except that I keep forgetting to actually eat. Also, grocery shopping and clothes shopping are mutually exclusive when you have to carry whatever you purchase home on the bus. Who needs that "Dinner" thing, anyway?
Side note: HAHAHAAH!
*Nora rushes into the ProgSoc room
Nora: Is it okay if I drop my bag in the room? I'm going out for coffee and don't want to carry it around.
Mm: ...
Nora: It's not like there's anything valuable in there. ...Unless you're interested in my dirty clothes.
Mm: Well, I can't speak for others' fetishes, but you're safe from me.
Nora: Well, if I walk in and Justin's wearing my skirt, I think I'll know.
Mm: But what if it's the underwear?
*Nora is severely broken
Nora: That's it, I'm going to have to ask him to show me his underwear when I get back.
Now I need to go read the Cisco notes on Chapters 6 and 7 for the third time, and pray the information goes in sufficiently to do well on the Chapter Quizzes. Gah.
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