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[Dec. 17th, 2008|11:54 am]
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[mood | frustrated]
[music |Brand New Colony, The Postal Service]

On my work computer, I have a text file with a list of words I hate trying to write/type - because I make the same typo every single time.

It's accumulated into quite a list by now, though admittedly some of them I haven't had to write in a while and might not get wrong any more. Cases where I can remember the typo are listed.

* Department (Deptartment)
* Longitude (Longtitude)
* Orthopaedics (Orthapedics)
* Surprised (Suprised)
* Furniture (Furniature)
* Latest (Lastest)
* Exercise (Excercise)
* Paediatrics
* Anaesthesia
* Attached (Attatched)
* Distinct
* Referral (Refferal)
* Thunder (Thundre)

...Gah! It's a wonder I manage to produce any presentable documents. My fingers love to type phonetically, particularly when I'm tired.
-Mmaster
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[Nov. 18th, 2008|04:09 pm]
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[music |The Blues Don't Bother Me, Matt "Guitar" Murphy]

You can tell I type by rote.

I keep trying to type "Thunder" in the Australian spelling conventions.

...Well, it's like "Centre", right? It must be "R-E"!

-Mmaster
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I'll get over you, I know I will, I'll pretend my ship's not sinking... [Oct. 4th, 2007|05:43 am]
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[mood | sleepy]
[music |Love Fool, New Found Glory]

Bed at 11:30.

Woke up just now.

I'm falling over from exhaustion right now. Coherency by this evening? Not so much. Whee...
-Mmaster
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She kinda looked like Joan Fontaine; she made mediocre art, but had a fascinating brain... [Jul. 5th, 2007|08:59 am]
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[mood | bouncy]
[music |Die By What You Live By, Harvey Danger]

Things to do today:
* Eat breakfast
* Go in to Uni
* Read four days' worth of RSS feeds
* Collect the mail for ProgSoc and CompSoc
* Look at my "Image Heavy" emails
* Send message to CompSoc reminding them to decide whether they want to attend Club Day
* Find people to rope into attending Club Day for ProgSoc ("Hi! You don't do an IT degree and have no interest in computers. Come join our club anyway!") ...Rob, would you happen to be free during the day on the 16th of August?
* If enough people say that they'll be free, RSVP for Club Day
* Get cash
* Possibly stock up the fridge, I don't know what state it's in
* Go to ProgSoc
* Have dinner at some point
* Come home

Things to do at some point soon:
* Watch Doctor Who
* Watch Spicks & Specks
* Read PC Authority
* Read the SIGCE journal
* Read River of Blue Fire
* Play some more Zelda; yay boss fight (argh)
* Relearn Java
* Maybe learn PHP/ASP
* Write Chris.exe

To do this weekend:
Saturday: E.G.G.'s holding two events: a LAN and a Smash Tourney. I can't be bothered packing up Connor, so I was probably going to leave Tristian there this evening and take him. And Smash is the only one I have any skill in, though it's fairly minuscule either way. So I'll be at least popping my head in for those.
Sunday: Dog training. Whee...


My typing's shot to Hell. I can't tell whether it's that I just woke up and hence am sleepy. Or whether it's that I didn't get enough sleep and am hence running on adrenaline. Or something else. But my hands are literally shaking - not very much, but enough that keys occasionally get hit in the wrong order (particularly when it's a "jump between hands" process).

...Rar.

-Mmaster


EDIT: Not a bad tally. From the things to do today, I got most of them accomplished. Only stuff I didn't get done completely was the ProgSoc Club Day - asked a couple of people, but a month away is apparently too far for most people to plan ahead :P.
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HOOD!s are almost as good as HAT!s, but not quite. [Jul. 2nd, 2007|11:38 pm]
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[mood | cold]
[music |Nothing I Want, Cold Chisel]

My= hbgan bdxsz are c okl,dx., Ftryik ngv tfrlo trfyg;pesw wakltfnb wakittrfhnb sza,kik gvf.lol essz ol n kisza a n ikn mtfewsrdeswsztfrkin mgvf .lwsszsazol ik n paiunb .

...

I assume you'd like a translation of the above?
"My hands are cold. Trying to type with ski gloves on is an interesting lesson in pain."
You can almost find the text buried in there, somewhere.

I think I'll go to bed. With gloves on.
-Mmaster
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Sunshine and chocolate every day, in your work and in your play... [Jun. 24th, 2007|11:09 pm]
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[mood | thirsty]
[music |Sunshine and Chocolate, Semisonic]

Watching five and a half movies in eleven hours kind of does strange things to your brain.

I got to Chris' place at around eleven this morning. Maybe ten thirty. I finally left at almost exactly ten o'clock, and managed to just catch the bus, instead of having to wait.

We proceeded to watch:
* The second half of Ocean's Eleven, having seen the first half on Friday night
* Ocean's Twelve
* Shrek
* Shrek 2
* Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl
* Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest

That last one's likely to give me nightmares.

And if it doesn't, the Otherland novels have a decent chance to boot. Yay, Second Life with VR headsets and the capability to damage you. Sunshine and lollypops!

I have completely lost any vague ability to type. And I'm getting a headache.

Katie called while we were in the middle of Shrek 2.
*Mm's phone rings
*Mm pauses film then answers
Katie: Hi, Margaret! Are you at home?
Mm: No.
Katie: Oh. Well, are you near a computer?
Mm: Not really. Why?
Katie: There was some dog that Barbara wanted to adopt, and we wanted you to check something on its webpage.
Mm: ...Okay.
Katie: Oh well. What are you up to? It sounds awfully quiet.
Mm: Watching movies with a friend of mine.
Katie: Ooh! A male friend?
Mm: ... *shakes head* I'll no doubt tell you all about it some day.
*Mm hangs up

It's more or less the fastest way to shut Katie up, since she doesn't seem to believe in male platonic friends. The first thing she asked Dedney when I introduced them was whether we were "an item". And I see her so rarely that she more than likely will have forgotten by whenever.
...I keep meaning to introduce Katie to Liz. I think they'd get on like a house on fire.

Mm is sleeeepy...
-Mmaster
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[Mar. 21st, 2007|05:04 pm]
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[mood | frustrated]
[music |Betty And Me, Jonathan Coulton]

I just spent probably two hours (possibly more) typing out a transcript of a twenty minute conversation. I'm normally faster than that, or so I'd've thought. ...Or possibly not, since it totals about four pages (probably three, once you remove the line breaks) - and I recall (possibly mistakenly) only typing a couple of pages' worth in my HSC exams.

I can keep up, taking notes on a conversation, but that tends to be less "direct transcript" than "summary of the points they reach as they go along".

However, I don't think I have 'dictationist' in my near career future, somehow. ...And I don't think I have time to visit Burwood, today; I'm not sure what time the newsagent shuts, but it's probably a half hour over to there... I wonder if I can scam Dad into giving me a lift over to the shops tomorrow. ProgSoc really needs that cash box.

-Mmaster
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You have my heart in your hands; you have my heart, so don't let it go... [Nov. 7th, 2006|07:22 am]
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[mood | sleepy]
[music |Too Good To Be, New Found Glory]

1) It's Melbourne Cup day today. Whatever.

2) My parents are back tomorrow night. YAY!

3) The Networking retest is tomorrow. Less yay.

4) Yesterday I actually accomplished things on the OOD assignment. Not at the speed I need to, but it's getting there. Some of the things in there are insane. There are a number of instances where there is
[line of code]
//[identical line of code]
Translation for those that don't understand the syntax: there's a line of code that executes. Directly underneath, there's an identical line, commented out, so it doesn't execute. Needless to say, I'm cleaning as I go.

5) I'm sleepy. I'm tempted to go back to bed, but I can't really afford the time. Though I could justify it by saying that I won't be able to do the coding if I'm sleep deprived. It's probably true, too: yesterday was the first day I've been able to focus on the task in quite some time.

6) But yesterday I woke up at 9:15, and it spooked the Hell out of me. Hrm.

7) But I certainly can't type right now. But my ability seems to improve slightly if I'm not looking at the keyboard - in a sharp contrast to the way things normally are. Though normally it's speed, not really accuracy, that increases if I stare at my fingers as I type.

8) I think I'll go and have breakfast. Sigh...

-Mmaster
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Yes, Rob, I know you did a more impressive achievement. [Oct. 3rd, 2006|07:16 am]
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[mood | exhausted]
[music |Hold My Hand, New Found Glory]

It's 7am.
I got to bed after 3am.

I have to present this stupid assignment at 1pm, and probably need to work on it before then.

The fatigue is killing me. Also the fact that I don't think I ate anything with a reasonable amount of protien yesterday, and felt like I was going to fall over at midnight.

I'm really hungry now, but last night I was too hungry to eat, and this morning's the same - except that I'm also so tired that I just want to go back to bed.

Except that I wouldn't sleep.


Neurofen and Coke are what will kick me through this day.
-Mmaster

EDIT:
Barely eating through yesterday
+ Eating too much for breakfast this morning
= Serious nausea
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The day didn't suck. It was just... Brain murder. [Aug. 8th, 2006|10:29 pm]
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[mood | exhausted]
[music |Walk Through The Fire, Buffy Musical]

Bipbipbipbeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

Memory overload. Please restart system.



Last night I got to bed at around eleven, eleven thirty.

I woke up at four goddamned thirty.

I lay there for half an hour, hoping for more sleep, before getting up, checking my email, reading two chapters of the Cisco textbook (I figured that would put me to sleep if nothing else would) and then napping on the futon.

I woke up at seven, seven thirty, feeling less awake than I did the first time - and with stiff muscles from sleeping at an awkward angle. GAH!


I went in to Uni, read the other three Cisco chapters. Went to the lecture, and only slept through half of it (what the Hell are Use Cases?). Hung out in the ProgSoc room, then went to the lab - did most of the prac task, but got bored and started chatting on MSN. Went back to the ProgSoc room, hung around there until the tute. Argued with the tutor about the examples he was supplying for the concepts that he was trying to cover, and was unable to transfer abstract concepts ('class', 'object') to real life situations.

Went back to the ProgSoc room, completed this week's lab work. Looked at next week's, winced, and decided I'd think about it later. Burrowed into the ProgSoc couch and refused to move until 9pm or so, doing the Census while I was there to get it out of the way. Cleaned the room a little (throwing out a bunch of old drinks, straightening the chairs), then headed out to go home.

Got halfway out of the building, and was struck by a feeling I'd forgotten to shut the door. Put it down to paranoia, and headed over to Macca's to grab dinner. Went to wait for the bus, realised that I wouldn't sleep if I hadn't verified the room was shut up correctly, sighed, and went back to check the door.

Ran into Rob, who was testing things on the Macs. Since he was just about to leave, waited the ten minutes or so, and left with him. Wandered over to Railway Square, waited for the bus, caught it home.

Now that the dog has just made himself comfortable, it's time to go and put my dead brain to rest. Tomorrow will be long. Bye.
-Mmaster
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[Dec. 28th, 2005|10:13 pm]
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[mood | okay]
[music |Something's playing in my head; I have this fear it's Kylie.]

I finished reading Knife of Dreams this morning. Despite what the last entry may have led you to believe, I actually did enjoy it. Sure, it wasn't reading that exactly required intelligence - but he managed to focus on the characters that were interesting, without getting too bogged down. That was what the previous book was for; now that he has the characters into position, I'm thinking (/hoping) that he can wrap it up (and wrap it up well) in another book or two.


Dad and I went to see Good Night and Good Luck this morning. Interesting film. Some of the choices the filmmakers made in the course of the production were quite clever - like choosing to film it all in black and white, and have no-one stand in for McCarthy.

After Mum came and picked us up, we drove over to 'Direct Factory Outlets' in order to try and find some clothing that fitted me and actually looked moderately good. I wound up with a pair of green three-quarter pants, which will probably do adequately for summer.


I've started reading Sara Douglass' The Nameless Day. I can't decide whether I'm enjoying it or not. I know Douglass is a good writer, from six books' worth of past experience; she just happens to choose protagonists that are thoroughly annoying. This guy is a friar who has been Touched By The Hand Of God, or words to that effect, and he proceeds to tell everyone in reaching distance what they're doing that will prevent them getting into Heaven. Meanwhile, he is having flashbacks to when he was a soldier who would kill a man then rape the wife, as part of some army.
Part of the problem is that, as the author notes at the front of the book, she is doing everything she can to mimic medieval Christian's sensibilities - and I disagree with those sensibilities. The one about "All women are whores" is probably accurate for the era; but it irritates me. I think I had similar problems with Pillars of the Earth.


Time for me to now pretend to sleep or... Wait a minute, the fire alarm just went off.
...Stopped now. Bye.
-Mmaster
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Random notes from a girl who promised herself she'd go to bed early tonight. [Dec. 27th, 2005|09:51 pm]
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[mood | sleepy]

It feels strange to be able to comb my hair - it's normally a fair effort to simply get it brushed. But freshly washed, it's amazingly co-operative, comparitively.

Mum bought me some new bandannas today - a white one and a blue one, both with little embroidered swirls in their respective colours at the corners. It'll be nice to have some ones that actually match my clothing again; my two previous blues (the penguin one and the one with the stars) got retired a couple of months ago, when they had both faded, frayed, and the elastic had died.

It's only ten in the evening. I should not be this unable to type. Yes, most of it is not showing, but that's because I correct my errors relatively instinctively.

Yesterday, parents and I went to see what was probably close to the last cinema screening of Kiss Kiss Bang Bang. It was amusing, though I think I got less than half the jokes. On our way out of the cinema, there was an amazingly long line of people queueing up to see The Chronicles of Narnia on opening night. It's amazing the number of classic fantasy series that annoy me: LOTR, Narnia, Potter (*Loud stabbing sounds*), and so on.

I've been reading Knife of Dreams. It struck me how black and white many of the characters, or at least the enemies, have become. In previous novels there were interesting moments where, as omnipetent reader, you knew that what the character was doing was wrong, and going to lead to the end of the world or whatever - and yet, when Jordan spoke from their perspective, you could see that they had reasons (and often moderately reasonable ones at that). Interestingly, the ...I think I'll call them 'grey' characters, ones that differ in opinion to the main characters and yet are not inheriently evil... greys are spoken from in this book, he often does everything he can to make them sound bad and make the reader lose sympathy with them. They are needlessly cruel to the servants, speak with disdain to everyone around them, and speak with a certainty that they will win - not from an attempt to bolster others' spirits, as the 'good' characters do, but from dispassionate belief. In short, the author makes them as thoroughly unlikeable as possible, in order that we cheer the good characters in their victories. Not necessarily a bad tactic, but if I'm noticing it, then it's not really a good sign.

The other day, I was shopping for something in the supermarket. I stopped to check one of the laminated shelf listings posted at the ends of the aisles. After I had looked at it for a minute or so, trying to find some item or other, a guy that was stocking shelves nearby noted that I must be the first person ever to have looked at it. I think he must have been asked a few too many times where to find things.

I think I'll go have a glass of milk then attempt to remember to put myself to bed. Doubt it'll happen, though.
-Mmaster
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...The hell? It's, like, two days to Christmas. Where did December go? [Dec. 23rd, 2005|02:36 pm]
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[mood | thoughtful]
[music |Only One, Yellowcard]

Ever completely zone out for a couple of minutes at a time? I've noticed I do that a lot, particularly when listening to music. Take Yellowcard's album Ocean Avenue.

When it gets to the title track (third song), I don't pay much attention to it until the bridge...

I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me, "Not tonight
Not here, not now..."

We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
We'll be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow

If I could find you now, things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow, we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away


I listen to the chorus, and then zone out until the next song (Empty Apartment) has its bridge and final chorus.

It's okay to be angry and never let go
It only gets harder, the more that you know
When you get lonely if no-one's around
You know that I'll catch you, if you're fallin' down
We came together, but you left alone
And I know how it feels to walk out on your own
Maybe someday I'll see you again
And you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend


Take you away from that empty apartment
You stay and forget where the heart is
Someday if you ever loved me, you'd say
It's okay



I still haven't figured out what I love so much about the italicised lyrics above. It's not like they're especially intellectual... Or even particularly meaningful. I just pay more attention to those parts of the songs over the rest of the track.


But this is why it stuffs me over if my albums get messed with. Because my favourite tracks (or parts of tracks) are not where I expect them to be.
-Mmaster
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So totally not in the mood for this. But anyway. [Dec. 19th, 2005|10:28 pm]
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[mood | irritable]
[music |The Zero Wing Rhapsody is playing in my head.]

A couple of QOTDs from the other night, that I'd forgotten to include:

*Richard says something to the general population, directing it to 'Gentlemen'.
Mm: "Gentlemen"?
Richard: Oh, sorry, Margaret. For a moment there, I looked at you as an equal.
*Mm beats up Richard

We have these kinds of conversations frequently. In case, y'know, you couldn't tell.

Richard: Yeah, I haven't reinstalled Hamachi yet.
Mm: It'll be interesting, given you've wiped your hard drive.
Richard: Wait, you're right. So it'll be a network with no administrator. So members will just keep piling up and up. ...Oh dear.

...Uh... It made sense at the time?


A QOTD for today that I remember (not that there probably weren't others):
Abby: Dacre used to play with his phone on the bus a lot. And he used to take photos of Dee with it, before they were going out.
Mm: So? I take plenty of pictures of Dee, and we're not going out. ...I take plenty of pictures of a lot of people I'm not going out with.
Abby: Funny that.


Today I got to say "I got enough" to a lot of people with hopeful expressions. And feel vaguely annoyed at something that I couldn't quite put my finger on. And get a Flop DVD. And stuff like that. Bye.
-Mmaster
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Things of note. Or not of note, as the case may be. [Dec. 18th, 2005|07:21 pm]
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[mood | Hopeful. Also sleepy.]
[music |In The Middle, Jimmy Eat World]

First off:
84.55.

Now that we have that out of the way, further points of interest relating to the above number:

* The BSCIT has had cutoffs between 80 and 83, over the past couple of years.
* This meant that I had a little mental ticker saying "You need over 80; over 85, for safety, would be great (but isn't really essential)." That mental ticker was happy with 84.
* Dad told me a number of things on the sly yesterday:
-UTS had been less affected by the number of university applicants than many others. But its collection of applications is still down (to or by, don't remember) 70%.
-Because UTS is one of a number of universities trying to boost the female population in unstereotypical fields, I apparently get a boost of four points to the mark.
...I'm not sure if either or both of those is true, but... (What do you think my chances are? :P.)

Fiona is/was apparently very depressed about her mark, 0.85 short of what she was hoping for. I can sympathise with the feeling that you might not get what you want, and the frustration of being so close. But I'm still mentally debating why she should feel "sad and ashamed" about a mark that's at least ten points higher (I've forgotten, off hand, the mark she was aiming for) than my own.
I'm tempted to force her to listen to the following song on repeat, and ignore her feeble attempts at protests that it's "Not her sort of music".
The Middle, by Jimmy Eat World ) (Yes, it's tacky. So?)


Next:

Yesterday, parents and I went Christmas shopping.

After that, they dropped me off at Stevie's birthday party.

QOTDs:
Black: Steve, you're killing the environment.
Stevie: Well, lah-de-dah. Get the trees to sue me.

Black: What do you get when you cross a pie dish, spoons and string?
Matt: Some sort of makeshift ukelele?

Matt: I shall reprogram with this large axe. Note: He was apparently quoting something. *Shrugs*

Richard: That's a death march rumba!

*Discussion about clean knives and kisses
Stevie (to Black): Come on, take one from the team!
*Kara and Mm edge away from Black... And Stevie.

Richard (about the Year 10 Formal afterparty): Darcy was amazed that I had brought alcohol and was actually planning to drink it. By the end of the night, I was apparently his mother...

Richard: Women. Always playing hard-to-get. ...Use the rocket launcher!

Mm: Yeah. I had trouble figuring out what I was going to get you. Eventually I just went into Australian Geographic, and asked the guy behind the counter "What do you have for an eighteen-going-on-five-year-old?"
Stevie: Oh, harsh. ...Wait. Did you actually say that?
Mm: Yeah. ...What?


Attendees:
Stevie (obviously)
Mm
Richard
Kara (She left around 11:30.)
Matt
Dacre
Nick M.
Black



Activities:
* Pinball. They had a competition. Stevie won, naturally.
* GameCube. Various games. I ended up playing Animal Crossing at 3AM, and amusing Matt and Richard by annoying Mr. Resetti, the mole that appears when you logon after resetting the game without saving. He gave me a lecture that took, like, fifteen speech bubbles to convey.
* Playstation. Matt bought Stevie Driv3r for his birthday - it was quickly determined to be a game with hard, repetitive, and pointless levels. Which was played for like two hours.
* A couple of movies. They started watching Zoolander on the main TV; I plugged in my external disk and watched Joe's Apartment - with Stevie, who was guilting because he thought I wasn't having fun (which isn't true, by the way). Halfway trough, my attention span started slipping, sp we fast forwarded through the majority of the rest, playing the roach songs. Later a number of the guys watched Kung Fu Hustle.
* A bunch of them started up a game of Talisman. It went on for hours. One of the annoying features of the game is that at the final stages, the characters spend their lives stalemating each other, so nothing actually progresses.
* Near the end of the Talisman game, Stevie and I started up a game of Mah Jongg, teaching Nick how to play. We played with my family's house rules, because I understand them. Dacre also joined us for a couple of hands.
* Black, Stevie and Dacre played Magic: the Gathering till Gods only know when. Meanwhile, I amused myself by reading The Ferrett's articles on StarCityGames.Com.
* Richard and I listened to random music from his collection. And I showed him some scenes from Donnie Darko - trying to find the amusing, yet non-spoilery, moments. He and Dacre helped me work out which song that it was, where I only knew the tune. It's kind of hard to ask Google for a song that goes "Da da da, danananana, na da da, danananana, etc."
* A couple of naps for assorted people. I sent Matt to bed relatively early, when he was trying to use a mattress as a quilt. Mine ran from not long after I made the breakfast (Whenever that was... 8ish, 9ish?) to around 12 o'clock.


After my parents picked me up, around 2:30, we went to Chatswood Westfield to try and do some more shopping. My logic sort of went "If I stop, I'll fall down." The girl in Socrates remembered me, but this time I had a less impossible request. I managed to complete my list, so now I have to help my parents complete the general family list. Oh well.

I still need to fill out a bunch of Christmas cards, for the rest of my friends that I haven't done yet, as well. But that can wait for the morning, when I actually may have some coherency. Sleepytime, I think.
-Mmaster


PS: This amused me...
Reponses to criticism of Wikipedia go something like this: the first is usually a paean to that pure democracy which is the project's noble fundament. If I don't like it, why don't I go edit it myself? To which I reply: because I don't have time to babysit the Internet. Hardly anyone does. If they do, it isn't exactly a compliment.
Any persistent idiot can obliterate your contributions. The fact of the matter is that all sources of information are not of equal value, and I don't know how or when it became impolitic to suggest it. In opposition to the spirit of Wikipedia, I believe there is such a thing as expertise.

Tycho is amusing.
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All I ever learned from love was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you... [Dec. 15th, 2005|11:23 pm]
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[mood | apathetic]
[music |Hallelujah, Rufus Wainwright (from Shrek)]

So here we go
Having the same old fight again
Though there she goes
Same old game that never ends

If I could say all the right words
I know I could make you stay
If I could say all the right words
Things would work out alright

CHORUS:
And if you go
I won't believe
That it's forever
And you can go
I'll never leave
'Cause it's not over

Replay last night
Talking out don't make it right
I know she's tried
My whole world is her
And all we've got now

CHORUS:
And if you go
I won't believe
That it's forever
I won't let go
Even if she
Says that it's over
I know it'll be
Different this time
If you just stay

And when we wrote this story
How did it end?
It was you and me for all our lives
Come on, don¹t say it
We'll try again
And if I'd just hold you
We could last

But she stands softly
Tears down her face
Hitting me, oh god
This is the end
I'd wait here for you
But there's nothing more now I can do
How did you know
How did you know
How did you know
Finally

-Denial, Revisited by The Offspring


Strangely enough, these two songs both perfectly capture the way I'm feeling. I don't know why, but maybe it's just the tone of them. The minor key of the piano in Hallelujah... Yes.

First batch of results come out tomorrow. Joy. I'm not sure I even want to know anymore. The thing that most annoys me most is that even knowing your results doesn't tell you all that much. I mean, the HSC mark tells you how you actually did; but it bears little resemblance to your UAI, which is what most people, at least at Fort Street, are interested in. And the UAI has remarkably little meaning until the University Offers come out. The University cutoffs are a reflection of demand; I don't know how high (or low) my marks will be. I have no idea how I did in the exams - I felt bad about most of them, but maybe that's just Fort Street paranoia. And I don't know if I had a misadventure thing for Ben, or just for the idiot supervisor. I should've put one in for Ben, but it didn't occur to me.

Gods, I'm tired. I had a minor screaming match with my father before, then we both calmed down and talked rationally. But arguments, conflicts, whatever - they always take it out of me, so badly, so fast.
...It's twenty to midnight. Grargh.
-Mmaster
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Strange thoughts occur to me when I'm asleep - or even if I'm not, I suppose. [Nov. 14th, 2005|06:25 am]
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[mood | sleepy]
[music |I have Shake Your Tail Feather in my head]

Have you ever woken up at what you're perfectly certain was the end of a chapter in your dream?

Until ten minutes ago, I was having some dream where I was a gangster, well deserving of prison. Cut because, while not particularly bad, some mental images are still not pretty. ) I managed to leave just five minutes before the police busted the door down - either the voiceover that it seemed to be receiving, or the 'flashforwards' that I was getting (so I could pick which way to take the dream - heh) told me so with great certainty.

The dream ended with that moment. Which, if it were a novel, would almost certainly be the end of a chapter - or possibly the end of the novel itself - the character has found security (or at least temporary freedom), they have escaped, and (assuming it's told from the character's point of view) - a certain sense of justice. It doesn't have the cliffhanger that many authors like to place at the end of a chapter, in order to ensure the reader continues - so maybe the novel.

-Mmaster
PS: You can probably blame the dream itself on the fact that I've been listening to both Stealers' Wheel's "Stuck in the Middle with You" and Nancy Sinatra's "Baby Shot Me Down (Bang Bang)" on repeat.
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I just might stop to check you out; let me go on, like I blister in the sun... [Oct. 7th, 2005|08:31 pm]
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[mood | weird]
[music |Blister In The Sun, Violent Femmes]

Things of note:

My friends act like manic depressives on a regular basis.

We should totally have a party in the evening after the Physics/Ext. History exams. Most people are finished on or by that date. Assuming that Fiona doesn't do Economics (and nobody can remember whether she does or not), we might even be able to scam her into turning up. Who's up for it? And what should we do?

My Dad brought home some magazine for me called Jumpbutton. It's about videogame art. And it's very, VERY cool.

I like the ringlets my hair turns into when washed, brushed, then left to dry.

I managed to get some stuff done today. Even if I was very tempted to go straight back to bed after breakfast. I went back to bed and read for an hour before I convinced myself to get up again.
* I read through the miscellaneous English notes; the ones saying things like "This is how to write an exposition".
* I skimmed the Coleridge notes.
* I got to the end of Space in Physics, even if I didn't, really.
* I typed out half of Quanta to Quarks at Shaun and Stevie, in the hopes that some of it might go in.
* I did an hour's worth of questions with my Physics tutor, as well, making it through a fair wad of further questions.

I'm leveling up my secondary character a little in Adventure Quest. The X-Boost tempts me. The precioussss... It calllls to usssss....

I want an R.I.P. L.O.L. tshirt.

I wish the HSC would die in a dark corner and go to Hell.

I was singing the lyrics to The Jets Song from West Side Story today at random intervals.

Black has gone completely freaking psycho. As is evidenced by this post.

Today I downloaded Blister in the Sun by The Violent Femmes. It's a good track. I added it to my "dl" playlist. I don't remember why I called it 'dl'.

I should repair Connor, so I can actually use MSN 7 properly and other such things. But nobody ever says anything anyway.

Beccy, I'm the only one that can see your last post; while you said it wasn't an indepth description, the others have missed their chance to feel your gratitude. :P.

It felt like I spent a lot of today saying that things "made sense in my head".


...What?
-Mmaster
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[Sep. 23rd, 2005|07:40 am]
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[mood | nostalgic]
[music |Chemical Heart, Grinspoon]

Having had five hours sleep, I figured it was time to report on yesterday. Man, I'm going to be dead by the end of today if I don't get some decent rest.

I got to school at twenty to eight or somesuch, and saw a bunch of Year 12s sneaking around. They called me over, and we stuck a "For Lease" sign up on the front of the school. And then found a way into the compound, and stuck a sign saying "Yr 12 2005, Better Than U" in large spraypainted letters onto one side of the overpass. Nick BS turned up, and he's like, "What are you all so afraid of?", but it was fun running around. They then taped up the Valley and toilets with caution tape, and dropped red-smeared tampons in the boys toilets. Yay for lack of muck up day.

I got Nick to take my bag into the hall and dump it in the front row somewhere, so I could snag a front row seat before the crowds turned up. Stevie turned up, and he and I headed into the complex through the gate that had actually been left open for us. Various people had already arrived. Dacre turned up, and told me that he needed to borrow Tristian, so I set that up. I then spent my time getting assorted teachers to sign my little book. Three teachers in a row started their message (After the "Dear Margaret", or whatever) "I wish you all the best in..." and the one after that said "All the best in..." Yay for genericness.

They served breakfast, but I'd already eaten. I wandered around, talking to people, and occasionally ducking back inside to get things or help Dacre/Rommell.

At about ten o'clock, they had a quick run through of the FLOP. I got a serious headache, and kept having to leave the room in an attempt to not die. I snapped at Anna K. when she asked me to sign her stupid book - I said no, and then she asked me again. Find a page worth of stuff to say to Anna? HA. Steson called me and suggested he visit. I was more than amenable to the idea - I don't get to see nearly enough of that boy.

At around eleven, we let the rest of the school in. I was amused that in the lead up, some twinkies came in early. We all chanted "Out, out, out!" at them till they left, chastened.

The FLOP was long, but generally good. We were plagued by technical glitches, especially the sound. They had like three sound inputs and only one mixer. I so have to buy the school one of those multiple-input-to-singluar-output gadgets as a leaving present. Jeremy hopped up on stage whenever the glitches occured and sang You Don't Love Me Anymore; he'd offered it as an act, but it got cut - so he took every opportunity he could to sing it to distract the audience (a verse at a time). It went for two and a half hours, and aside from technical issues, I think we generally held the attention of the audience for the entire time. I got the entirity of the teachers' pantomime on video. *Amusement* They made a really bad choice of song for the "Let's all get up on stage and look nostalgic" song, though. Having a song and changing the lyrics to suit is a nice idea; but their choice of song sucked. My Way is too hard to sing, and nobody can figure out the tempo. I hid behind Simon so I didn't have to try - and chatted to Richard, Matt and Stevie. (Doesn't everyone do that while they're on stage at their leaving celebration?)

Martin turned up. And all present were scarred for life.

We all lingered in the Fountain Quad afterwards. Richard went and took a cake to the office ladies. The icing on top read "So long, and thanks for all the late notes." Before he handed them it, he filled out a late note; they were protesting, saying "But we've seen you already today! You were here this morning!", much to the amusement of the onlookers. When they cut the cake, they tried to offer it to all present - I didn't have any because it was mud cake, Beccy refused on grounds that it was covered in coconut, and Stevie couldn't eat anything because he had his plate in. Eventually they palmed that piece off onto Darcy, who was paying for something or other. Steson eventually turned up at the door. We hung around a little longer, checking out the sign with great satisfaction, and then he, Matt and I headed to MarketTown.

We bought chips-and-Coke from the chicken shop (well, I bought the Coke from Michel's, because it's cheaper, but the idea's there), and ate it down in the food court. We then headed into Gadget Central, and I introduced them to Steve and Pete. I freaked Matt and Steson out with some of the stuff on sale - I think my favourite's still the Blacklight hat - and we chatted with the guys for a while. I edited the scrolling light sign to say "YAY!!! NO MORE SCHOOL FOR US!!!!" - I think I've got the number of exclamation marks correct. We then headed on, through to Target, where we drooled at the games and were traumatised by the soft toys. I'm not sure which one was scariest: the singing polar bear, who's cheeks light up with a possessed red glow when activated; the Care Bears that sing at you; or the Furbys, that I was amazed to find still in existence (Steson discovered that they were on exactly the same cycle - he activated both at the same time, and they said the same things. We also found a Pikachu doll which moves its mouth and speaks in a friendly voice when you squeeze its left hand - and buzzes with "Thundershock" when you squeeze its right. (I think Matt wanted to buy it.) He did end up buying a Knuckles (from Sonic the Hedgehog) 'poseable action figure'.

After we had been completely freaked out by the assorted animated soft toys, we decided that it was probably time to head home. Steson abandoned us at that point, while Matt and I went back to my place. We ended up watching Blurred. The film still felt appropriate, even though, in a lot of ways, we were watching it six weeks early. We both agreed that the experience of Schoolies that it documents is not really one we wish to have.

At about a quarter to seven, parents drove us both to school for the graduation ceremony. I love having a friend who has his name one place before mine on the roll - it's so useful for inanities like those assemblies. And from small amounts of swapsying, we managed to get Dacre, me, Matt, and Richard in a row. That was cool.

We all lingered in the Fountain Quad after that, hugging random people and taking photos and whatever else. There were lots of plates of stuff, but I wasn't hungry enough to face any of it. My parents and Julie agreed to hang around for a while, then go out to dinner.

We eventually drove down to Norton Street and found a restaurant that was still operating at 9:45 at night. I ordered a kids meal, not just because it was the only simple thing on the menu, but also because I was still not hungry to eat a full meal. I still didn't manage to finish my chips. We hung around, chatting, and finally left around eleven.

I ended up doing assorted stuff after that, to the point where I was still up at 12:30. And then I woke up at 5:45. ...Or, more to the point, I woke up earlier than 5:45, but refused to check the clock until then. I'm going to have breakfast (I'm tempted to make bacon and eggs, though I'm not sure I can be bothered) and then be tempted by the thought of going back to bed.
-Mmaster
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There was a sequel to Chitty Chitty Bang Bang? My faith in humanity is lost. [Sep. 17th, 2005|08:51 pm]
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[mood | tired]
[music |This Could Be Love, Alkaline Trio]

Friday was a complete waste of a schoolday. I mean, it was fun and all, but very little actually constructive was accomplished.

Beccy and I managed to get the History deptartment yelled at by Miss Moxham, because we were not in uniform, Beccy blatantly so. It was fairly amusing.

First period was SDD. More inane tasks to complete to make Mr. Lucas feel needed. Yay.

Second period was a free. I assembled Beccy's outfit and added enough safety pins to her bedsheets to attach her to an electromagnet.

Third and fourth were the Ancient party. I was an exeedingly poor pleb, carrying around a sign reading "Will vote for food". Many photos were taken, some of which I stole from other people's cameras to put onto Tristian. Just before the end of third period, there was an announcement over the loudspeaker, saying "We're going to have an assembly now." So we all trooped down to the assembly in full regalia, me laughing uproariously at the rest. I took some photos of it.

At the assembly, they told us that some idiot set off a firecracker under a car. SMRT.

When we all traipsed back to the room, we started filling out those "Who do you think is most likely to become a millionaire? Who has the sexiest butt?" -type questionnaires, with the answers destined for the yearbook. Dee, Dacre, Happy, Beccy, Kara and I took it highly seriously. We put Darcy down for both "Sexiest male" and "Sexiest female". Filling out the lists degenerated into a huge gossip session, with Miss Trevini spending half the time saying things like "RAMANAN is a gossiper?"

At lunchtime, we were sitting in the Common Room, and someone set off yet another firecracker, presumeably by throwing it out of one of the upper floor windows. Oh dear. When Miss Ross came to investigate, she verbally flamed some guys that picked exactly the wrong time to come back with pizza, much to the amusement of the others present.

Fifth period was Physics, and the 'Phys-a-thon'. It was basically a "Yay, we've finished the course, let's have a class quiz" exercise. Matt and I generally ignored them to read Friendly Hostility comics, though I appended to a couple of answers for bonus points.

Sixth period was English. I finally finished filling out my yearbook questions, and palmed them off onto Steven Ung. Various people chatted about stuff and not much happened.


Today? I'm too lazy to write it out again. Have the version I sent to Stevie.

Stevie says:
waht did you do today
Stevie says:
'?
Shoulder Angel says:
went to birkenhead point, sent a message to julie telling her to tell matt that retrogames was still in operation, bought a green shirt and some checked fabric, came home, took the cat to the vet, caught a bus into the city, went to usyd's book sale, bought a goodkind book and a book on html 4 for a total of eight bucks, caught a bus further into the city, walked to pitt street, wandered around finding the best price for dvds, bought chicago from angus and robertson, bought donnie darko from hmv, had lunch, gave money to the buskers, caught a bus to markettown, checked in on peter and hung around gadget central for half an hour or so, caught the bus home, and then lazed around for the rest of the afternoon

Shoulder Angel says:
i saw kara today. and michelle. and some random girl who sometimes catches my bus
Stevie says:
where at?
Shoulder Angel says:
kara: a&r
michelle: she walked past while i was eating lunch
random: while i was waiting for the final bus, she was sitting, waiting for her friends
Stevie says:
aandr?
Stevie says:
angus and robison?
Shoulder Angel says:
yah



There. Feel informed?
-Mmaster


EDIT: POOM! is disturbingly addictive.
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